Obsession

So I have to admit I have a baby baby baby Obsession obession obsession lol that was me echoing lol. For the last week or so I've found myself talking about babies all the time, about baby names, thinking of painting my extra bedrooms colors for nursery's, talking about when I have a baby this or when I get pregnant that, and I've come to the conclusion that it's an OBSESSION!!! So last night I was laying in the bed with the lights off and we were ready to go to sleep when I just said to Danny "do you ever think about us having kids?" he responded "yes", I asked "Do you think about it daily?" he said "pretty much yes", So then I said "I can't help but think about it daily and it's driving me nuts I feel like I have to do more to push us to have a baby I just can't sit by and do nothing anymore" so we talked for a while longer and decided we are going to do some more fertility treatments but we are going to start with at home treatments such as I am getting ovulation kits to see if and when I'm ovulating, and we have several at home IUI kits that we are finally going to try, and all the while we are still going to be working out and trying to loose weight but I need a baby I have to have a baby there is no if's and's or but's about it I HAVE TO or I'm going to go insane one day lol. Then we started talking about that stupid pregnancy test commerical that it's talking about this new invention that's the most inevative piece of equipment that you'll ever pee on and we started laughing because it's so stupid. I'm glad we started laughing though because I was already crying and I didn't really want to cry myself to sleep last night.

I know I'm not the only woman out there to have Baby Obsession but I think it's also great to know that I'm not the only one in my house either lol. Danny is just as obsessed as me I think, he may not show it as openly as me but he is lol. We talk all the time about the names of our children and we have for the most party stayed with the same names for the past several years. For our son we of course have always said we would name him Danny Lee Hubble, III and either call him Lee, Trey or Trace. For our daughter just a few years ago my sister came up with the name idea Amily like Emily but with an A and so her name will be Amily Elizabeth Hubble. As far as if we have more than one girl or boy we haven't really picked names but I gave Danny the ok that he could name the boys and I get the girls lol. I'm thinking I also like the name Annsley Marie Hubble, I love girls names that start with A's I guess because me, my sister, and both of Danny's sisters names all start with A's Amy, Angela, Amber and Autumn. I feel like my baby girls should also start with A's lol. Right after we came up with Amily we went on a vacation to St. Thomas and when we got off the plane and drove out of the airport there was this huge sign that said "Welcome to Charlotte Amilie" I was like OMG that's our babies name lol. Over the last week I've been obsessed with baby names and have even looked online at names over and over again, I would love for my boys names to start with D's since Danny starts with a D I just think it would be a cute way to name our kids and have our family like that.

Here I go again just fueling my obsession but I am so ready to be a mommy more ready than I have been in a long time, or ever for that matter my biological clock is ticking and I can't get it to shut the fuck up so I'm going to do everything I can to make it happen, and if trying from home the next couple of months doesn't happen then I am bound damned and determined that we will go back to the fertility clinic because I am going to be a mommy damnit!!!!