wrote july 10- where does time go???

The other day my mom was fixing her website (www.JoeandMargie.com) and was reading our infertility timeline I never really thought holy cow we've been doing this for so long but she informed me that the first time I went to the infertility doctor was over 6 years ago!!! That to me is absolutely insane! Where did 6 years go? What has gone on in those 6 years? Well I'm here to tell you A LOT!!!! 6 years ago I only had 3 nephews Tyler, Austin and Ethan... Tyler was 10, Austin was 8 and Ethan was 4, now I have Tyler who is 16, Austin who is 14, Ethan who just turned 10, Michael 5, Haley, 4, Keaton will be 3 Sunday, Jeffrey 2, Adrian 2, Romale will be one on the 16th and am going to have 2 new nieces in September... So in 6 years I've added 1 niece and 5 nephews!!!!! That's one new kid every year lol.

In January Danny and I had been together for 10 years, my nephew Ethan just turned 10 I looked at Danny the other day and said "Holy cow we could have a 10 year old!!!!" Where does time go? If it takes me 6 more years to have a baby I will be 34, that's 8 years older than my original plan to have all my kids by 26... I'm 28 now! Within these 6 years we've also lost half of our grandparents... but that all happened within 6 months of each other... we lost my PawPaw in Dec 2002, his Grandaddy in May 2003, and my Nana in June 2003! Worst 6 months ever!

In 6 years we've moved from one house to another, we've had his sisters move in and out of our house, my brother got remarried, we've even joined 4 different Gyms. All together it's been over 72 months, thats over 312 weeks. And I can't even tell you how many thoughts, or tears I've gone thru...

It's amazing how time flies I just don't want it to fly by to fast, or as fast as it already has. Thinking of how long ago it was is mind blowing and makes me feel like what the hell have I been doing for 6 years why haven't I tried every which way to loose this weight to help me achieve having a baby? I'm not sure what the answer is but I know that I'm not stopping and I'm never going to give up on having a baby of my own and I'm going to continue to push myself in the gym and push myself to eat better, I am ready to be a mom but I'm also ready to be healthy. To make things a little more interesting I went for my first fertility appointment to my OB on 8/26/02 so in a little over a month from today it will be 7 years... I am going to set a goal to loose at least 10 lbs between today and 8/26/08. So if any of you would like to join me in a challenge similar to this weather you need to loose just 5 or 50 lbs total I'm up for the challenge are you?

Six years have flown by and I'm not going to let one more go by too fast or let one more go by with me being overweight so here we go... I've already lost 10 lbs since we joined Urban Active and I'm ready to loose more... lol this blog started out with just thinking of how much has happened or not happened in 6 years and has turned into a challenge for me and anyone else that wants to join me lol. I'M A DORK LOL!!!!

The true meaning of this blog is to tell everyone not to stress over small problems because in 6 years from now you won't even remember they existed... hug your loved ones because in an instant they could be gone... kiss your kids and hold them tight because there are people like me who wish every single day to have a child of our own... have fun, live life.... 6 years ago I wasn't the same person I am today and had no idea what the future held for me, I may still never know what the future holds for me but I do know I'm in control of my present and if I can make each day a little bit better than my future has to be great, I've enjoyed being an Aunt and I think I'm a damn good one too but I am and have been ready to be a mom.
I'm not saying loosing the weight is going to be easy, because I know it's going to be hard as hell and a struggle within myself but I'm willing to work at it... So bye bye 10 lbs hello tredmill LMAO!!! If you want to join me in my personal challenge e-mail me.