So I've been thinking of getting a tattoo I am thinking of getting the infertility ribbon which is pink and blue with the ends shredded to show all the heartache I've been thru over these last million of years lol, and I've thought about putting it up on the back of my neck but then I thought why put it there that's not where my problems are lol... So I'm now thinking of putting it right where the top of my panties are where my ovaries are lol they are after all the reason I haven't gotten pregnant yet... I'm also thinking of getting angel wings attached to the ribbon but not sure how well that really plays into it I just think they are pretty lol. Either place I decided is going to be somewhere not many people will see and I'll know it's there I just think if I put it on my ovary I might actually be able to see it one day when my belly isn't so fat lmao... but on the back of my neck I don't have eyes back there lol. I don't know just a thought... any who that's all for now... check ya later
So on the 10th I posted a challenge I was pushing myself towards to loose 10 lbs by Aug 27th ish lol... So last week was my first official week to challenge myself I think I did awesome... Sunday July 13th I did Zumba for an hour at the gym, Monday July 14th I did one hour of cardio kickboxing at the gym, Tuesday July 15th I did another hour of Zumba at the gym, Wednesday July 16th I took a day off, Thursday July 17th we met with our trainer for 30 minutes of upper body training then we did 30 min of cardio on the tredmill, and on Friday July 18th I did another hour of Zumba at the gym... so for 5 out of 7 days I did an hour workout plus I've been taking my meds on a regular basis because I finally got the bright idea to set a reminder on my cell phone that goes off at 12:30 everyday and I am usually eating lunch at that time so it works out great for me. So this first week I've already lost 3 lbs woo hoo go me!!!! I am so excited and ready for more to fall off, I haven't even eaten right this week lol, I am thinking that once I eat more healthy and less like a pig I will see a lot more results so I'm excited about that too, I have the right foods at home it's just the bad foods are way too yummy. But if you workout that much then even if you eat bad you still shouldn't gain or that's what I'm thinking, you're basically burning most of the calories you take in thru out the day. I missed Zumba last night because we had a family reunion we had to go to but I'm going to Kickboxing tonight and loving every minute of it lol.
I just wanted to go ahead and make a quick update that I've lost 3 lbs already and I know I have a long way to go in my long term goal but if I keep hitting my small goals then it will be no time and I'll be at my long term goal... I am just going to keep setting 10 lbs markers and space them out in a months time so that I know I will be able to loose up to that point, and make it to that 10 lb marker... it's gotta work right I mean I'm pushing myself harder than ever and I am excited about working out and I'm loving moving my body and I love the classes so much more than walking on the tredmill it makes me feel full of life to dance in the zumba classes I just love it!!!! So until next time... peace!
The other day my mom was fixing her website (www.JoeandMargie.com) and was reading our infertility timeline I never really thought holy cow we've been doing this for so long but she informed me that the first time I went to the infertility doctor was over 6 years ago!!! That to me is absolutely insane! Where did 6 years go? What has gone on in those 6 years? Well I'm here to tell you A LOT!!!! 6 years ago I only had 3 nephews Tyler, Austin and Ethan... Tyler was 10, Austin was 8 and Ethan was 4, now I have Tyler who is 16, Austin who is 14, Ethan who just turned 10, Michael 5, Haley, 4, Keaton will be 3 Sunday, Jeffrey 2, Adrian 2, Romale will be one on the 16th and am going to have 2 new nieces in September... So in 6 years I've added 1 niece and 5 nephews!!!!! That's one new kid every year lol.
In January Danny and I had been together for 10 years, my nephew Ethan just turned 10 I looked at Danny the other day and said "Holy cow we could have a 10 year old!!!!" Where does time go? If it takes me 6 more years to have a baby I will be 34, that's 8 years older than my original plan to have all my kids by 26... I'm 28 now! Within these 6 years we've also lost half of our grandparents... but that all happened within 6 months of each other... we lost my PawPaw in Dec 2002, his Grandaddy in May 2003, and my Nana in June 2003! Worst 6 months ever!
In 6 years we've moved from one house to another, we've had his sisters move in and out of our house, my brother got remarried, we've even joined 4 different Gyms. All together it's been over 72 months, thats over 312 weeks. And I can't even tell you how many thoughts, or tears I've gone thru...
It's amazing how time flies I just don't want it to fly by to fast, or as fast as it already has. Thinking of how long ago it was is mind blowing and makes me feel like what the hell have I been doing for 6 years why haven't I tried every which way to loose this weight to help me achieve having a baby? I'm not sure what the answer is but I know that I'm not stopping and I'm never going to give up on having a baby of my own and I'm going to continue to push myself in the gym and push myself to eat better, I am ready to be a mom but I'm also ready to be healthy. To make things a little more interesting I went for my first fertility appointment to my OB on 8/26/02 so in a little over a month from today it will be 7 years... I am going to set a goal to loose at least 10 lbs between today and 8/26/08. So if any of you would like to join me in a challenge similar to this weather you need to loose just 5 or 50 lbs total I'm up for the challenge are you?
Six years have flown by and I'm not going to let one more go by too fast or let one more go by with me being overweight so here we go... I've already lost 10 lbs since we joined Urban Active and I'm ready to loose more... lol this blog started out with just thinking of how much has happened or not happened in 6 years and has turned into a challenge for me and anyone else that wants to join me lol. I'M A DORK LOL!!!!
The true meaning of this blog is to tell everyone not to stress over small problems because in 6 years from now you won't even remember they existed... hug your loved ones because in an instant they could be gone... kiss your kids and hold them tight because there are people like me who wish every single day to have a child of our own... have fun, live life.... 6 years ago I wasn't the same person I am today and had no idea what the future held for me, I may still never know what the future holds for me but I do know I'm in control of my present and if I can make each day a little bit better than my future has to be great, I've enjoyed being an Aunt and I think I'm a damn good one too but I am and have been ready to be a mom.
I'm not saying loosing the weight is going to be easy, because I know it's going to be hard as hell and a struggle within myself but I'm willing to work at it... So bye bye 10 lbs hello tredmill LMAO!!! If you want to join me in my personal challenge e-mail me.
