Negative

Why is it that you try something new one month and you just expect that it's going to work? I mean just because I read some other person who had PCOS and was trying for so long got pregnant after using this product one time doesn't mean it's going to happen to me!!! Of course I expected that it was going to and I hate that I always get my hopes up, I'm very proud of myself though even though my hopes were sky high I didn't go all crazy white girl lol.

That was in September... this is now November 5th and I've gone through one more month of negative testing... IT SUCKS... Depression Sucks!! Infertility fuckin sucks!!! That's all for now lol.

September is PCOS Awarness Month

PCOS Awarness Month
September is PCOS Awarness month. I have PCOS, it is the reason for my infertility. PCOS is a part of my life, it effects the way my body deals with insulin, my hair loss on the top of my head (yes I have a bald spot), if effects my menstral cycles, it also makes me sometime not ovulate, which is really bad since I want to so bad to be a mom, it effects my weight gain/loss. PCOS has so many symptoms it's insane. I have to take Metformin twice a day to lower my insulin due to PCOS, and most people don't know this about me, they might know that I am dealing with infertility but I figure since it is PCOS Awarness Month I thought I should spread the word, for those of you that don't think you have it, GOOD I don't want you to have it lol, but you may know someone else that might. SO SPREAD THE WORD!!!! Get educated, google PCOS for more information. I've also included some info from other websites.

Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome At A Glance
Polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS) is an illness characterized by irregular or no periods, acne, obesity, and excess hair growth.
Women with PCOS are at a higher risk for obesity, diabetes, high blood pressure, and heart disease.
With proper treatment, risks can be minimized. Ideal treatment is directed to each of the manifestations of PCOS.
What are the symptoms of polycystic ovarian syndrome (PCOS)?
The symptoms of PCOS include:
Irregular or no menstrual periods
Acne
Obesity, and
Excess hair growth
Other signs and symptoms of PCOS include:
weight gain,
acne,
oily skin,
dandruff,
infertility,
skin discolorations,
high cholesterol levels,
elevated blood pressure, and
abnormal hair growth and distribution.
Any of the above symptoms and signs may be absent in PCOS, with the exception of irregular or no menstrual periods. All women with PCOS will have irregular or no menstrual periods. Women who have PCOS do not regularly ovulate; that is, they do not release an egg every month. This is why they do not have regular periods.
No one is quite sure what causes PCOS. Although women with PCOS often have a mother or sister with the condition, there is not enough scientific evidence to prove that the condition may be inherited. The ovaries of women with PCOS frequently contain a number of small cysts, hence the name poly (many) cystic ovarian syndrome. A similar number of cysts may occur in women without PCOS. Therefore, the cysts themselves do not seem to be the cause of the problem. A malfunction of the body's blood sugar control system (insulin system) is frequent in women with PCOS, and researchers believe that these abnormalities may be related to the development of PCOS. It is known that the ovaries of women with PCOS produce excess amounts of male hormone known as androgen. This excessive production of male hormones may be a result of the abnormalities in insulin production.
Women with PCOS are at a higher risk for a number of illnesses, including high blood pressure, diabetes, heart disease, and cancer of the uterus (endometrial cancer). Much of this risk can be reversed by exercise and weight loss. Additionally, it is important for women with PCOS to have regular periods. If a woman does not have regular periods, her risk of cancer of the uterus (endometrial cancer) is increased. Medication is generally prescribed to induce regular periods. Obesity is a complication of PCOS. Reducing the medical risks from PCOS-associated obesity requires hard work on the part of the woman with PCOS and is often frustrating.
Here is a quick test... http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LnBjb3N1cHBvcnQub3JnL3N1cHBvcnQvcXVpei5waHA=
This next segment is from...http://pcos.insulitelabs.com/blog/index.php?p=199
Almost 7 million women in the U.S. alone have PCOS and less than half know they have the syndrome. Public information and awareness of the symptoms and the serious nature of the disorder are crucial to identifying women in need of treatment.
September is National PCOS Awareness Month and we invite you to think about how you can become an advocate for PCOS awareness this month and into the future.
As difficult as it may be for many of us to talk about PCOS, I ask you to join other PCOSA members, women with PCOS and their friends and become involved to make a difference. You could potentially help someone who is unaware that they have the syndrome. Just think how wide PCOS awareness could spread if we all took action.
We ask you to share your knowledge of PCOS with others. Our goal is to foster knowledge and sensitivity to those with the condition. Have you ever told someone about PCOS who has never heard of the syndrome before? Was their reaction shock, disbelief or confusion as to why they had never heard of this before, since it is so common?
Perhaps you have a mother, daughter, sister, or female friend who is overweight and honestly not sure why. Perhaps a female friend suffers from excess facial hair, but mistakenly assumes this is only a cosmetic problem. Tell them they can start by taking the quiz at http://www.msplinks.com/MDFodHRwOi8vd3d3LnBjb3N1cHBvcnQvcXVpei5waHA= which will help them to evaluate their risks and will guide them toward "next steps" in seeking help from a doctor. Help spread the word about PCOS. You never know who may learn from us and in turn, get the help they need.
As you work toward your healthy summer achievements, think about what you can do to make sure that your overall health is your focus throughout the year. Awareness of PCOS is not about identifying with a disease, it's about recognizing the advantages to healthy living, and the impact that has to your quality of life and to your longevity.
PCOSA is now accepting donations for our PCOS Awareness Auction, to be held during the month of September. Do you have an item to donate? Can you solicit something from a local business or friend? We are looking for hotel certificates, restaurant gift certificates, spa services, handmade items, gift baskets, theme park tickets…you name it! Please contact Andrea at pcosa.auction@gmail.com for more information about donating an item or items.

My poem to Danny

This poem I decided to design,
Begins on September 11th, 1999.
One beautiful day in September,
You made it a day I would always remember.
Sitting at a picnic table,
The things you said made me tremble.
You said you loved me,
my friends and family.
You held my hand,
and offered me a wedding band.
I felt like a princess,
when I said yes.
One year later,
It got a whole lot better.
Being your bride,
made my heart fill with pride.
These last eight,
have been great.


I love you Danny!

Baby Showers UGH!!!

So I have to admit I HATE BABY SHOWERS!!! Both of my sister-in-laws are expecting ready to pop any day. This is Amber's 3rd baby, Autumn's 2nd, just so I can clarify Amber's other 2 kids are 2 and 1, Autumn's son is 2. For all three of Amber's babies she's had a baby shower and for both of Autumn's she has too. I wasn't able to make it to either of their baby shower this time around. Can I just pause here and say I don't think it's right to have a baby shower for everyone of your kids unless it's like 5 or 10 years in between and when they are back to back like that no matter if it's a different sex or not it's just wrong in my eyes and I've always been raised like that. So I bought each of them a gift blah blah blah but then I get home today and there is a freaking invitation to another fucking baby shower for another family member that has 2 kids already WHAT THE FUCK???? And then I turn on the tv and they are talking about baby showers then my friend who's not married mind you tells me she is so depressed because she doesn't have a husband and she really wants a baby and I'm like please just stop just stop just stop just fucking stop!!!!

When is it going to be my turn? When am I going to be able to have a baby shower, be big fat and pregnant not just big fat lol. I just am so sick of this having to buy these cute little baby gifts for other people? People don't understand how hard it is for me and they don't seem to care either it's all about them them them and to be honest with you I'm over it!

It's Official I'm a bow hunter!

So I am officially a bow hunter lol. What I'm hunting right now is the target in our back yard lol... eventually it will be deer season and I will be going hunting with Danny!!! The first time I shot my bow I hurt my arm so freaking bad it wasn't even funny. I had this big bruise and whelp show up on my arm but I learned a new trick to get rid of bruises faster than normal to put an ice pack on them, it helps to stop the bleeding below the surface and heals it a lot faster. I'm not saying it was a miracle cure by any means but my bruise is gone and it was so big that it should have taken at least 2 weeks for it to fully go away lol, however I still have a spot on my arm that is still swollen! Danny told me the other day that he is getting more and more excited to take me hunting, that made me feel really good. I'm taking my hunter safety course in the next week or so and I'm getting excited about that, never done anything like that before, so it will be interesting.

Ok so this was like almost 2 months ago that I wrote the paragraph above and saved it as a draft lol. I took my hunter safety course and passed with a 95 out of 100!!! So proud of myself I think that's the best test score I've ever made on anything lol. I also went with Danny hunting my first official time in the woods. Needless to say I didn't see anything, I feel asleep in the tree stand a couple of times though, but Danny was right there with me to wake me up just in case lol! I actually had a lot of fun, even though I got cold and had to poop in the woods... I don't like to poop anywhere but home lmao!!! So I'm officially a deer hunter! And I will be going back in the woods as soon as possible!



I never thought that shooting a bow would be that much fun but it really is. I had to learn to hold the bow away from me, for men shooting is so easy because they don't have boobs getting in their way, so everytime I pulled my bow back it was causing the string to bend against my boob and made each shot go in a different spot. I learned that I can easily hold it away from my body just as well and hit the spot I'm aiming for every time!