Ever since Danny started running/walking in 5K's (September 2008), I've felt the want to do one, I've always been scared to do them or thought that my body wouldn't hold up. Well this year I was determined that I was going to complete my first 5K no matter how long it took me. Of course I'm not a runner so I walked the entire thing but I did it, I finally completed my first 5K! I was the team captain for "Team Izzy" at the Ava's Run for a Reason 2012 so I felt like I had to complete it. I walked with my two best friends (Danny & Julie) and 3 of the cutest little kids (Derek, Dylan & Ashlyn). I'm very thankful that my husband and my BFF stood by me the entire time and didn't mind that I was going at my own pace. I was officially the last person to cross the finish line, but I was also the last person to cross the start line :). Danny later told me that he was so proud of me for finishing it, he will never know how much that meant to me to hear him say that. I am so thankful to have a husband that cares enough about me to be happy when I accomplish stuff like that. I remember when I was pregnant with Derek and we would go to Danny's runs and see kids & families running/walking together we would always say "I hope that's us some day" well yesterday was our first family 5K and it was AWESOME. I hope one day my boys want to compete in them themselves.
April came & moved out of our house we've been in for 5 years the house we met God in, the house we were blessed with Derek in, the house we found out we were having Dylan in. We lost it to foreclosure if you're wondering why we moved. We moved into my parents house April 19th. May 13 we welcomed Dylan Laken Hubble to the world 7lbs 15 oz 18 1/2" long...
This is a picture of my precious baby with his IV & Oxygen.
We looked to God for comfort & support we wanted him to be ok we wanted to be able to hold him & show him that we were there for him we wanted to be his mommy & daddy. I was so thankful for the people who prayed for him & us. He had to spend the entire night in the nursery & couldn't come to my room, I was able to go see him & even hold him for a few minutes. Big brother came to visit but couldn't see him in person :(. The next day he was able to come off of the oxygen but still had to be on the IV and had to have his oxygen levels monitored all day long. He also got to meet his big brother for the first time...
I keep saying he just wanted us to think that he was just as much a miracle from God as his brother but what he doesn't know is I already thought that. :) I am so thankful for the blessings God has given me, I've prayed for years to become a mommy and now I have 2 beautiful boys that make every day of my life even better than the last.
July we went on a family vacation to Orange Beach, Alabama.
In August Derek turned 2 & Dylan turned 3 months old... Thank you God for the blessings in our life. I hope to repost again soon hopefully won't be another year!
He is the sweetest little boy ever and loves his Mommy so much, of course his Mommy loves him tons too. He just started Mother's Day Out on Monday, that was so hard for me to leave his sweet sad face behind, but it will be good for both of us.
So let me recap this year. Derek was born August 11, 2009 weighing in at 8 lbs 4.3 oz and was 19 inches long. He looked a lot like both me and Danny when we were babies! A few weeks after Derek was born my brother, John, and sister-in-law, Sara, announced they were having a baby too! Derek was a monkey, dinosaur and skeleton for Halloween lol, yes three costumes! We took him on his first road trip to Iowa to see our friends Amanda & Jared in December. We had an awesome Christmas, I turned 30 in February! Life has been crazy busy and then Derek turned a year! That pretty much sums it up lol.
Me and My baby!
Thank you God for the gifts I have been given, for the love that I have been blessed with, for the family that has stood behind me, and the friends that have held my hands. I am truly one lucky and blessed person, and am thankful for all of the things I've been through to get HERE!
As most if not all of you know Danny and I tried for 7 years before we were blessed with a miracle from God, here I am with who knows how long till Derek arrives it could really be any day now, but if he doesn't come on his own I will be induced one day next week, my due date is Tuesday! I've loved the song "Here" by Rascal Flatts since I first heard it, I know that in the song it talks about finding a love or significant other but for me it really has taken on a new meaning. I'm going to explain...
The chorus in itself is the one thing that is so true for me, "I wouldn't change a thing I'd walk right back through the rain, back to every broken heart on the day that it was breakin' and I'd relive all the years and be thankful for the tears I've cried with every stumbled step that led to you and got me here, right here. " It's so powerful I've had many broken hearts in the past 7 years almost once a month when I would start or when I took a pregnancy test and it was negative, those years truly made me the person that I am and those tears I am thankful for them, they are what has made this pregnancy journey the greatest gift I've ever received, without them I don't know that every moment I've felt my baby move inside my belly would have been so powerful, everytime I got to see his precious face on that ultrasound screen so moving, everytime I heard his heartbeat on the dopplar would make my heart skip a beat. I am so thankful that I got to experience that pain, that want, that desire because it's only going to make me a better Mommy. I am so beyond ready to hold my precious child in my arms, hear his cry, kiss his cheeks, look at those beautiful eyes, see that his nose really is mine and his lips really are his Daddy's, the moment that child comes into this world my life will forever change and in the best way possible. He is already so loved and spoiled, and I will make sure every single day that he knows how precious he is to me and how for so many years I've longed for him, and how thankful to God I am that he blessed us with a miracle.
Last night started our first of 6 week child birth classes... we only have 7 weeks till our due date lol, I sure hope we make it to the last class, it may just be the most important one! Last nights class was a basic introduction, learned a little breathing, and got to see pictures of how much my insides are cramped up because of Derek lol. She told us that we could start now by teaching him a routine that should carry on into when he's here, if you go to bed with noise and light he will not know what is day time and what is sleep time, because they can already see light and hear thru your belly, but if you have it dark and quite when you go to sleep then they will get use to that and know when it's time to go to bed the lights will be out. Well if that's the case then we've got this in the bag lol, Danny and I have always slept with it pitch black in our room and no noise, so maybe just maybe after the transition of Derek being here and it's time for him to sleep thru the night he may just do well lol. I am not expecting it for the first 3 months at least though lol.
Within the next few weeks we have a lot going on, this weekend is our first shower, I am so excited to open all the little stuff for Derek, and knowing that I really don't have that much longer till we get to use the products kinda freaks me out a little bit, but I am so excited and ready. The following week is 4th of July then after that we have our final shower given by my step-m0m-in-law lol.
I can't believe it's almost time to have our baby, a little nervous about the whole process but I am ok, I still stop and thank God at least once a day for this miracle he has given me, I love feeling him move and kick inside my belly, it's a feeling I really only dreamed about and thought that I would never feel but I am so thankful that I was given this chance to be a mom. I love watching Danny watch or feel my belly move his face lights up when he talks to him and Derek responds with a kick, I have a feeling Danny's already wrapped around his little finger, they say girls are the ones that wrap dad's but as long as we've been waiting I think Derek has both of us wrapped. I can't wait to see who he looks like, I hope he has Danny's lips, we both think he's already got a Reese nose lol, I can't wait to kiss his cheeks and his belly and hold him in my arms and tell him how much I love him, and see him look back at me, I am so ready to see Danny hold him, my mom told me the other day that the delivery room is going to be so emotional for all of us, and I am starting to believe it, I am already emotional thinking about this beautiful baby boy coming into this world.
I have written blogs in the past on or about Mother's Day, usually it was because I had a lot of heart ache and just longed for once in my life to have that holiday mean something to me other than a reminder of the things I didn't have. Today is a beautiful day, it's mother's day and even though Derek isn't here yet, I finally realize this day has so much more meaning than what I ever imagined. I was awaken today by my sweet little man kicking me most likely cause he didn't like how I was laying but I just laid there and enjoyed his kicks, and thought to myself how wonderful this feeling is, and then when Danny woke up and he was still kicking and started to kick more when he heard our voices I told Danny he was kicking to tell me Happy Mother's Day, of course we both got a good laugh out of it. My wonderful husband then proceeded to give me a gift I wasn't expecting and the tears started to flow, it was a beautiful card and the words he wrote to me made me realize I wasn't the only one excited that I finally get to celebrate this day as a mother that Danny was and is just as excited as I was, then I looked in the bag, and there was this beautiful figurine from Willow Tree called "our gift" a woman and a man standing arm in arm holding a little baby. I can't explain how wonderful of a husband I have, he is absolutely the sweetest man I know. I look back today on the past 7 years and I just feel so blessed and so thankful that even through the heart ache and the tears Danny and I stayed strong together, and I am so thankful for the tears that I have cried along this journey because it has made ever second of this pregnancy a gift, God has blessed me and today I just wanted to write a blog that for once wasn't about poor pitiful me but about how thankful I am, I hope that everyone has a wonderful and safe Mother's Day. I am going to my mom's this afternoon, where we always take Mother's Day pictures and today instead of standing with empty arms in pictures I will be holding my belly which houses my son, and that is the most wonderful mother's day gift I will ever receive in my entire life.
So as of Tuesday I will be 6 months pregnant!!! It has gone by so fast, I love feeling Derek kick it's the most wonderous and amazing thing I've ever felt before in my life. All the years of trying I never imagined it would be so wonderful. He kicks when his Daddy talks to him, he kicks when I sing in the car lol, most likely telling Mommy to shut up lol. Yesterday he kicked just about all day long. I just sit back and enjoy it, knowing how long it took me to get to this point, I just stop and enjoy him. Some days I find myself sitting in his room just enjoying it, waiting, wishing, day dreaming about him. I can't wait to hold him, to meet him, to kiss him. He is truly a dream come true for me. Danny enjoys feeling him kick too, he said last night I can't even imagine how it must feel like on the inside lol. I am so thankful to God for this wonderful gift.
