I have written blogs in the past on or about Mother's Day, usually it was because I had a lot of heart ache and just longed for once in my life to have that holiday mean something to me other than a reminder of the things I didn't have. Today is a beautiful day, it's mother's day and even though Derek isn't here yet, I finally realize this day has so much more meaning than what I ever imagined. I was awaken today by my sweet little man kicking me most likely cause he didn't like how I was laying but I just laid there and enjoyed his kicks, and thought to myself how wonderful this feeling is, and then when Danny woke up and he was still kicking and started to kick more when he heard our voices I told Danny he was kicking to tell me Happy Mother's Day, of course we both got a good laugh out of it. My wonderful husband then proceeded to give me a gift I wasn't expecting and the tears started to flow, it was a beautiful card and the words he wrote to me made me realize I wasn't the only one excited that I finally get to celebrate this day as a mother that Danny was and is just as excited as I was, then I looked in the bag, and there was this beautiful figurine from Willow Tree called "our gift" a woman and a man standing arm in arm holding a little baby. I can't explain how wonderful of a husband I have, he is absolutely the sweetest man I know. I look back today on the past 7 years and I just feel so blessed and so thankful that even through the heart ache and the tears Danny and I stayed strong together, and I am so thankful for the tears that I have cried along this journey because it has made ever second of this pregnancy a gift, God has blessed me and today I just wanted to write a blog that for once wasn't about poor pitiful me but about how thankful I am, I hope that everyone has a wonderful and safe Mother's Day. I am going to my mom's this afternoon, where we always take Mother's Day pictures and today instead of standing with empty arms in pictures I will be holding my belly which houses my son, and that is the most wonderful mother's day gift I will ever receive in my entire life.
So as of Tuesday I will be 6 months pregnant!!! It has gone by so fast, I love feeling Derek kick it's the most wonderous and amazing thing I've ever felt before in my life. All the years of trying I never imagined it would be so wonderful. He kicks when his Daddy talks to him, he kicks when I sing in the car lol, most likely telling Mommy to shut up lol. Yesterday he kicked just about all day long. I just sit back and enjoy it, knowing how long it took me to get to this point, I just stop and enjoy him. Some days I find myself sitting in his room just enjoying it, waiting, wishing, day dreaming about him. I can't wait to hold him, to meet him, to kiss him. He is truly a dream come true for me. Danny enjoys feeling him kick too, he said last night I can't even imagine how it must feel like on the inside lol. I am so thankful to God for this wonderful gift.
